After much thinking, talking, phone calls, crying, happiness, sadness, getting info, weighing options, confusion, frutration, and restless sleep... I've decided to apply to Lewis & Clark College to study Sociology and Anthropology. At least right now I am feeling like I want art to be my hobby but not necessarily my job, because I am not enjoying trying to improve my art skills; I'd rather just create art the way I want to and not be told what's wrong with it. It was probably the most difficult decision I've made in my entire life so far. Because I love San Francisco, I love living on my own, I have amazing friends here, and of course I love Sang. And leaving SF basically means breaking off the most awesome relationship I have ever been through... Nine months of going out (and eight of those living together constantly) is not an easy thing to let go of.

I have more I could say but livejournal isn't really the place to put all of it.